This is my second post in one day…its a record! Today I only had two of my classes and have been kinda taking a break from homework (which is a good and a bad thing) but I’ve been able to spend some extended time in the Word, reading, and in prayer. I also went to Baby Girl’s Club which is always one of the brighter spots of my week! Lately, I have been thinking a lot about what I want to do with my life and what God has called me to be.
I know the high standard that I have been called and I feel the call to do something that only God can fulfill. And as much as I know this I’m trying so hard to figure out what that exactly means. This brings a lot confusion and worry. I have been struggling a lot lately with being in college. I know a lot of people say this, but I truly hate school and I really have hated it my whole life. I hate going to classes and I hate doing homework. I like learning new things and gaining knowledge but I feel like I’m wasting my time and money here at school and if I could drop out and do something I love the rest of my life and having enough to live on I would be content. I just wish I could volunteer and be in ministry to others. I don’t want a degree and have to endure the next two years of studies…Why can’t I just volunteer the rest of my life?
My brother told me the quote, “Find the place where your greatest passions meet the world’s deepest needs.” (I think that’s right). That’s where I want to be. And right now I guess I need to be in school and continue to build up debt and all those nice things, but I’m only hoping it leads to something that I will love and be passionate about while meeting the needs of the world and fulfilling my desire to be a light unto the world and that I can be “Jesus with skin on” to those around me.
Going to AFrica this summer is something I’m so excited about being I feel like it is a part of fulfilling my purpose. And I can’t wait to see what God has in store and I’ll continue praying for patience with school and praying for guidance so that I can know that purpose that only God can fulfill!