Tonight for the first time in awhile I just sat. I had the TV on and my computer out, but I wasn’t quite paying attention. I actually did nothing and I felt bad about it. I kept having the urge to work or to call someone to go somewhere, but I didn’t. I talked on the phone with a few people which was great, but other than I can’t say I did much.
When did I lose my ability to do nothing and enjoy it? I used to be able to just sit at home at night and watch tv and be completely content…maybe even borderline lazy by some standards…but now when I actually do that for the first time in weeks I feel bad about it and have to force myself to just sit. Where is the balance between being productive and being lazy? Why was it so hard for me to just make my mind, body, and soul stop?
I feel like the energizer bunny these days…I just keep going and going and going…
**on a completely random note, I’m seeing The Civil Wars in concert tomorrow…so excited! If you haven’t heard them before (the 3 of you that read this) you should listen to them! They’re pretty great**